New Life~

大家好~~~~

我的人生开始了新的阶段~ 新的生活方式~ 那就是我不再是学生了！我已经是个上班人士！
要烦的事也越来越多，要烦我的sale,要注意小心别得罪人，要努力表现才能有好的收获，要记得保持微笑(我最不擅长的），要小心别抢到别人的顾客，要计划怎样花我的工钱，好多好多
我体会到了，怎样待人处事，有时真的要带着面具做人~防人之心不可无~

最近会觉得很空虚，没人可以分享我的喜怒哀乐，以前的我怕自己没能力给她幸福，但现在我有能力了，但却找不到管道和她聊，她很少上线，sms又怕她觉得烦，更别说是打给她。
平常的我很多话，但要是我到了我喜欢的人生旁我就会变得很安静，我也不知道为什么，所以她问我的时候，我也说不上，就说我累了，我没办法把我真正的想法告诉你，对不起啊~

要是我知道你对我的感觉是怎样就好了，要是我突然去告诉你，但你对我没感觉，那我们连现在有的关系都会失去，我输不起啊~ （虽然我们现在的关系也没有很好，就一起出来那么两次，但我已经很开心了）

我太懦弱了~~~~~~~~

Random

又回来啦~！这整个礼拜很忙，但不知道在忙什么，她也好像很忙，我也不知道她在忙什么呢，她没说，我没问，就这样，但我觉得机会已经慢慢离我而去，我只能坦然的接受，到现在我还是问不出她对我到底有没有好感，就这样吧
最近有个小妹妹在找我聊天，跟她同岁但是感觉就是不一样，觉得那小妹妹有点幼稚，还是她太成熟？ 小妹妹主动来找我聊，还约我出去，但是我就是不想理她！！奇怪了！ 我就是个怪人嘛！！哈哈哈

失去的，回不来

跟大家分享我的一个过去

在我大约十五岁那年，我认识了一位别的学校的校花，她人很好，跟我很聊得来
我们每天都会传简讯，或上网聊天，我的个性就比较害羞，我不敢当面跟她聊天
但是后来我们却刚好在同一个补习中心，所以就有说到一些话
当时其实我对她满有意思，也自以为她对我也有意思，但我从没开口
直到有一天我发现了，她其实有男朋友了，那时这件事对我的冲击蛮大的
我还哭着跟我姐哭诉， 但之后我们还是继续聊天
终于他分手了，我还是没开口
直到有一天，她跟我说她喜欢我学校的一个男生，我也自以为那个人是我的机会很大了
但，不是，那男的是当时我最要好的同班同学，之后我们就没联络了
是我的问题吗？ 条件太差？还是我始终没坦白我的心意？
就是我这种性格，可能我已经错失了很多好女生，
最近很常听到她的消息，因为我的好朋友跟她走得很近，希望他会成功！
因为她长得真的很漂亮，哈哈


现在的我还是很怕表明我的心，要是她对我没意思，就连现有的关系都没了　
这种赌注，我输不起


我就剩几个礼拜了，再不说会有遗憾的，但是我怕会耽误她的时间，怎么办呢


我喜欢你，你喜欢我吗？要不要试看看交往，我觉得会不错哦！！

你知道我在对你说吗？你收到吗？

二度发育？？？？

最近我变得很奇怪，怎么吃都不会饱
上一分钟在妈妈档吃 roti telur & roti kosong
下一分钟在 snooker 店吃烤面包
在家也吃，出去也吃
怎么办，我不要变胖！！！
还有最近我才知道这是我的最后一个sem了，超快的
还有很多事没做，还有很多话没说
怎么办，我就快踏入社会了
好像还没玩够
但我也不小了，是时候出去闯了
希望一切能够顺利，让我在中国拼出一个春天！！再回来新加坡
到时我希望继续进修，然后当一个有创意的PR person!!

没意义的post

今天我的同学戴了副塔罗牌来，我也去玩玩，刚开始只是小准，但最后一个让我吓了一跳
它是这么说的：
1）你的缺点就是一直在意别人的感受，就不管自己
2）最近在改回自己的旧习惯（I change alot after my last relationship, I'm try to change back to the old version's Jeff）
3）最近我在努力的忘掉一个人
4）最后它还送我一句， the more you want to try to forget a relationship, the harder it is

神！！！还有一些我忘了，大家可以去试试看哦~

突然感到很累了，一直追着人家跑，可能她也会觉得很烦，所以为了不让她觉得我烦，我会慢慢的，慢慢的消失，她应该不会察觉到吧~~她好像也和其他人聊得很开，而且也和我最不喜欢的人，她不会主动来找我代表她其实不是很想跟我聊天吧，对吧，所以咯，饶了别人吧Jeff..........也饶了你自己吧。

好羡慕别人出门有个女生牵着，我好久没牵别人的手了，应该还没忘了吧，哈哈

还有最近迷上 sporty的女生，很加分哦，哈哈哈

我要去健身！！！

我要去游泳！！！

我要 join MDIS Football Club了，开心！我要试试看我守门的功力！！

还有我越来越喜欢我的 group <> 虽然大家不看好我们，虽然有些组员会放我鸟，但我们合作得很愉快！！


还有 Jolin's 小伤口很好听！！！


真的很没意义！！哈哈！！但是这是我的心里的小秘密，太多放在心里很难受，所以寄放在这，

Happy Post

Since i promise Phyone (my MDIS classmate) my next post (This post) will be a happy post so ya...if you all expecting my emo in this post...i'm afraid you will dissapoint ya....=P

8/21 是我爷爷去世的第一百天，我们黄家全部人到其！！好开心哦~~
爷爷没留下什么给我们，但他却把我们黄家所有人拉得更靠近，更团结~~~
这种聚会的感觉通常只有在新年时才会有~~
老实说以前我并不喜欢黄家亲戚，大家好像根本都不亲~我和我的堂表姐弟妹就算见面到不打招呼~
新年时我去吃晚餐，和长辈们说说话后，我马上就驾车走了~~
但现在我不会了，我发现大家都很同心~下个新年我会呆久点~~因为很有feel了~~
对了，刚才在做法式时，我们发现了，有只白色加线条的飞蛾呆在电灯上，它的颜色跟我爷爷的其中一件衣服雷同~~我都感觉到是我们的爷爷回来看我们了~~好奇妙，你们一定不相信~但我信！！哈哈~~~
大家要珍惜的家人相处的时光哦~~~
我什么都能没有，但我不能没有我的家人~~我爱我的家人
我爱酷酷，越老越注意流行（那时是他告诉我小猪要来新加坡开演唱会的），喜欢和我喝酒的爸爸~~
我爱劳苦功高，有点唠叨但超级可爱，开放的妈妈
我爱很烦，很夸张，长不大，最矮但超级关心我的大姐
我爱很emo，性格跟我超像，和我一样超爱吃好吃但又贵的食物，也超级关心我的二姐
我爱不多话但很关心我们的姐夫
我爱喜欢叫我豪豪的侄女Daphne
我超级爱你们~~~只有你们会全心全意的爱我但不求回报~~~谢谢你们！！！！

LJ

哈哈哈，最近我们 Loco Club 分出了个小团体，那就是Locos Junior (LJ),有点抄袭的名字，哈哈哈，但是我们会取这个名字的主要原因是因为他的简称=LJ,也可以由另外一个意识，就象征了我们的叛逆和反骨~~主要的成员有我 LJ_Jeff, LJ_Kay & LJ_Fabian. 三位住 34的男孩(34是离市区较远的地方)。我们唱的歌会比较粗一点，迟一些会post我们的 video和照片上来。因该要等我们party后，喝了点酒就会有video了，哈哈哈哈哈

我

我有很多称呼，
我爸妈叫我阿豪
我大姐叫我佼佼
我二姐叫我豪阿
我侄女，干爹，干妈叫我豪豪
我loco club的朋友叫我loco豪
我KL& Singapore的朋友叫我 Jeff
我的表侄女和外甥叫我豪叔叔，豪舅舅
我给自己取了叫小夫
我爸爸的老板一家人叫我小小雄（因为我爸的小名叫小雄）
好多名字哦~~

乱！烦？累！

最近一直有很多甜蜜的情侣在我面前出现，好羡慕又嫉妒哦，会觉得好不公平，为什么那种咖都有女朋友，而我就找不到呢，我已经忘记牵着女生的手的感觉了，我好像也忘了怎样哄女生开心了，我忘了很多感觉了。
想一想我也单身半年多了，有时想找个人撒撒娇，但回过头却没人能让我撒，心酸啊。。
要说对象也不是没有，最近有个让我想进一步了解的女生，但她好像对我没什么特别的感觉，haizzz, 也对啦，我又不高，又不帅，又没才华， 人又怪，独来独往，很难吸引别人的注意，
但是我不是很确定，又不敢问，怕问了就连现在的关系也没有了，侧田也有唱啊，<若她还是当年的路人甲，我或许还能保持昔日潇洒> 说的就是我的担忧，烦！！！怎样才能确定一个人对你有没有兴趣呢。。。。费解啊~~~
又不能直接问：hey 对我又感觉吗？
哈哈哈how!!!????

It's My Life

yo...i got 3 younger sista now....which are Sarah, Ven and Chantelle......feel so good when hang out or htht with them.... I enjoy my life alot study at MDIS....its Fun and Interesting compare to Kampar life....but now only thing i can remember about Kampar is hang out with Tayshawn, Edward, WWW, Rick and Henry they all.....
What we did at that kampung place huh....
well...
1) we drink beer at lakeside...after that throw the bottle into the lake....fun fun
2) we all go da gei (play l4d2)....syiok syiok
3) we all go waterfall....nice nice
4)we all bbq...peanut, ham, taofu bakar+ liquor.......great great
5) watch movie from computer(Drag me To Hell) scary scary

hahaha we did alot of stupid stuff...i miss they all man...long time never see they all edy...
i really really appreciate they all...they will support me when i sad...they will listern to me when i m emo.....you guys is the best!!!!!! meet up one day at kl ya....

5 out of 10??

I admit that I am not that kinds of perfect man, boy , boyfriend or whatever.....

I'm not handsome..I'm not charming...I'm not cute...I'm not tall enug...My shoulder is

not comfortable enug for you to lay on it.....I'm not a well speaker...I'm fucking shy...I'm a asshole

If you gonna to rate for me , I think i will get 5 out of 10....

But I don't give a fucking care about what you thinking of me...

If you really love or like me...then why you still have so many thing to complain with...

Why don't you just accept me? and all the thing i lack??

Why don't you just love me no matter what and stop thinking too much??

Why don't you just fuck the tomorrow and just enjoy today??

This character is the one you fall in love from the beginning...why now it became a bad

character??

You don't like this, you don't like that....i fuck this thing up...i fuck that thing up....

Fuck all this bullshit ok.......it's enough for me......

Remember that i told you if one day i'm leaving...then i won't come back anymore....

and thank you for bring me alot of good n sweet memory....

and thank you that make my life totally change....this is the life i want....i hope u will find yours

Now I'm stronger then before ...no matter my mind , my heart or my body

Right now, i still don't want to stable down....

Because i'm still waiting for a girl that impress me....

i still waiting for a girl that give me back the feeling i want

i still waiting for a girl that will accept my everything

i won't cheat on that girl...my heart will 100% toward her....

and i will try to become a 10/10 guy only for her....

Who are you? where are you?

i don't know

Just wait

wait

好久不见

哈哈.....大家已经忘记了我还有这个blog了吧....那很好.....我就还有这里可以宣泄我的心情....Facebook和twitter都太多认识的人.....有些事很不方便说

单身也已经五个月啦....我很享受单身的生活...很自由....要做什么就做什么...不需要考虑太多....我也慢慢变回以前的我了....换一个环境是对的...很适合我....我好爱现在我所拥有的...我要谢谢她...她的一个决定让我获得我真正想要的.....

我一直为别人想....觉得自己配不上人家....觉得自己很矮.....觉得自己不够有钱...为什么我就没有挑人的权利？？我就那么差吗？？

我要的她，不需要很完美，只要她懂得让我知道她的美

我要的她，是在我做傻事时，骂我傻，但也陪我一起做着同样的傻事

我要的她，在我做错事但没受罚时，和我一起大笑幸运而不是骂我

我要的她，是会听我的建议，至少会听

我的要求会很过分吗？？但这就是我要的，说说可以吧？！哈哈哈

就先这样吧@@

Ghost came b paradise d....wwooohoooooooo

wooohoooo.....tis couple month ghost hav sumthng nid 2 solve in hell...so no time 2 update..heheee
bt nw ghost hav lot of free time d...yaaahooooo

erm...start from tis short sem 2...nw is week 3 d...i go b my hometown <> continuosly 2 week d...bt tis week cant go b d....coz da stupid assg lurr..haizz..nex week oso cant go b...coz stupid test at sat...haizzzzz.....tis sem i quite free coz juz taking 2 subj...thurs can skip coz juz 1 lecture n fri no clss so wed nite i can tak 9.15pm's bus go b d...so siiok...althought nid tak 8-9 hours bus...but i gt no special feeling on it d...no matter are tired,boring o wat..i feeling nothing...hahahaa...i juz ply my psp, listern my touchy, ply my lappy o slp a while then i will saw the view outside the bus wil became the view i familiar means almost reach d....hehee...then my buddy wil cum jb fetch me....no matter how late (o u can call 'early in the morning') they all will oso cum fetch me...so gud...juz gt 1 cb kia call kay loo nv cum n fetch me lor...u better watch out r...hahahhaaaa......k la.....enug d....i start my pp marathon d ya....hohohoooo

HomeTown

at home town almost a week d.....many thng was happen......aaiiikksss...
most serious's thng is my gmum...her urine's color bcum red...wah damn scary man...
bt luckly juz sum infection...nt a big porb..
hoho...my uncle at china cum b 2day...nw at outside da house drinking beer n chatting
me?? sit infront of the computer waitting my fren fetch me go yamcha coz i lazy 2 drive..hohoho
at the crowd situation...every relative oso cuming my house 2 visit my gmum...bt i stil doing the same thng...facing com....lol....tis is my style...i hate n alzy 2 fu yan them v silly smiling face....tats y i concentrate 2 facing de com....smart right...hehhee....k ya...bb

方炯镔-坏人

那 一扇车门关出 我们的裂痕

一声就震断了回头的路程

爱 无法均分以后 就留给你们

也许用伤害结束 爱才更动人*

容忍的人其实并不笨只是宁可对自己残忍

既然爱不能恒温祝福就给你下一个人**

你是好人 也是个坏人对我坦承

只为了朝他狂奔 不能放任 所以放了 这点痛我还能忍

我是好人 也是个坏人 分得够狠 你才有借口转身

宁愿爱 一点不剩也不忍 看恋人爱成路人

Repeat *,**三个人从不对等总有个人必须牺牲那永恒 就等他带你完成

Repeat **宁愿爱 一点不剩也不忍 看恋人爱成路人

方炯镔首张个人创作专辑 　　

首播主打：坏人（中视‘牵年花开的日子’片尾曲） 　　

“好人？”或者“坏人！”的世界端靠眼睛是看不清楚的… 　　

在每个伪装背后，你的心，感受到了什么？看到歌 听到人

妈妈

妈妈。。你在哪里。。我好想你啊。。你不要我了吗？我一直在等你哦。。





小bi

My liFe

since small....everytime i gt a lot of choice n road 2 choose....nw stil thking wat wil happen if i choose another choice...nw lets refresh back my life...


1996~1997::
after my kindergarden...i gt 2 choice...1st is go malay sch..2nd is go Cn Sch..
finally i go for cN Sch(is my mum choi ice 4 me)...well...if i go malay primary
sch...mayb my english basic wil very nice...compare 2 go Cn sch...bt i thk
it is a right choice...coz my Bc wil b nice oso...

2002~2003::
after my UPSR...i gt 1A 7B.....nt bad...i gt another 2 choices...1st is go Malay
2ndary sch...2nd is go Cn 2ndary sch...well...if i go Cn 2ndary sch..my english wil
wil bcum more suck n my chinese pronous wil b suck~!!!!!!!!lol..i wil join tos
rich fren n i wil bcum 败家子...well i feel greatful i go 4 malay 2ndary sch
(i knoe nt the best choice la)...

2003~2005::
well form 1-2 i m a totally s.o.b gangster...the reason is i study at F class o..
F?? seem nt so bad rite bt infront F gt RK1>RK2>A>B>C>D>E> then is
F....so obviously all my classmate is gangster oso...i seek wil ask 4 fight
when ppl stare awhile on me...really suck....bt when form3 miracle happen..
i promote in 2 RK2....it is 2nd best class in our sch...so....i choose 2 turn a
guai guai zai...then i score 6B 2C...it is nt bad 4 me la..i knoe compare 2 u all
my result is suck~~~

2005~2006::
2 bad...form 4 i b classified into account class...wtf...i totally dun hav any interest
in account...so me n my best fren lit ask 2 transfer into science clss...well we did it
so i wan b a scienctis..mwuaahahahahaaaa

2006~2008::
well...spm i score 4A fewB..fewC...n 2G....sejarah n moral is alwayz my weakness
...well as my 2nd sis study nursing at sg...n few relative oso stay in sg...so i decided apply sg nanyang poly...my 1st choice is Food science...dun knoe wats the reason( mayb my result 2 suck) i cant in any poly in sg..wat a shock 4 me..coz if few yrs ago...my result 99% can enter poly..mayb standard nw higher d...bt lucky i cant go in sg...i choice utar n i met her...i fall in love on her...well u all shud knoe who is her ba..hahaha....


so...my life so many option 2 choice....hehe...m i did a rite choice..wat if i choice another choice in half wayz....i dun knoe...until i die i oso wont knoe..who knoe...mayb juz God knoe ba...heheh...anyhwr i love my life nw...i love u 2...write so many d..feel tired d...tata

Tagged By Weng n KiKi

1. The person who tagged you

kiki

2. Your relationship with him/her is

coursemate

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her

cheerful,frenly,wear high heel,hardworking,like 2 eat ba?hehe

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you

erm..same group 2 do assg when sem 1

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you

cal me mama..haha

6. If he/she become your lover you will

both of us nt available...hahha

7. If he/she become your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be

no idea ler..hehe

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will

afraid ba..haha

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be

no idea ler..hehe

10.The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now

Tel her to study hard ba

11. Your overall impression of him/her is

nice

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?

weirdo

13. The characters you love of yourself are

calm n attentive

14.On the contrary, the characters that you hate about yourself

careless n hot temper

15. The most ideal person you want to be is

L??hahaha

16. For people who care and love you, say something to them.

she muz be my b...hahah...love ya

17. Pass this test to 10 persons who you wished to know how they

1.joslynn

2.bobo

3.weng

4.edward

5.tayshawn

6.kiki

7.reno

8.melanine

9.ah seng

10.wen

18. Who is no. 6

erm her housemate

19. Is no. 9 a male or female?

male

20. If no. 7 and no.10 together, is that a good thing?

erm 1 at sg 1 at kl i thk impossible gua..summore cant use 2 it 7 b my bro-in-law..hahaha

21. What is no. 2 studying about?

Foundation in Science phyc stream

22. When is the last time u had a chat with no. 3?

erm ytd lo...friday..29/03

23.What kind of music band does no. 8 like

erm dunno ler..hehe

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?

yup

25. Will you woo no. 3?

lol...i m nt a gay ler..hehe

26. How about no. 7?

i m nt gay!!!!

27. Is no. 4 single?

nt sure ler..seem lk yes

28. What is the surname of no.5?

Lee

29. What is the hobby of no. 10?

wow...100% is shopping..hahah

30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?

they don't knoe each other gua

31. Where is no. 2 studying at?

utar

32. Talk something casually about no. 1

she is my girlfriend

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 6?

haha..no...never...hahahaaa

34. Where does no. 9 live at?

pj

35. What colour does no.4 like?

dun knoe ler..sry

36. Are no. 5 and 1 best friends?

i thk is good fren ba

37. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?

mayb...hahahaaa

38. What is no. 6 doing now?

dun knoe ler..hehehee

J

i m wearing a <<J>> alpha earring at my left ear....it is nt present my name call jeff....bt it is present my bi call joslynn....i luv her...she alwayz on my mind....miss you~~~

Temper

how 2 control ppl temper....how???how??how??

tis few dayz...dun knoe y...small thng wil make me angry....the pity victim is my
bibi.....
sry ya bi....n thx oso...thx bcoz u can tahan me....wats wrong v me...izzit 2 dissapointed 2 myself??haizzz....cant lk tis d....if cont all fren n bibi will leave away frm me d....muz cHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!